Wow.. cant believe today, found the book.. "Tuesday With Morries" grab n bought it after much consideration. First introduce to the book by Grace.. well buyin the book is not becos of her.. but its more like its a good book with her recommendation, so y not hav a go at it.. haha. Spirits seems better today.. Well.. feeling is still there.. depressed, down sure is =) but life arent tt bad..
Watch a movie today by myself, looking ard.. so many couple, n grps of pple watchin together then i am like.. err... alone. Doesnt matter.. all i wanted was some time alone.. walking ard.. listenin to music.. like i always am.. Lone Ranger i guess.. but in the end i still need someone i can turn to, God is there... but somehow i still need someone whom i can see n talk to.. feel kinda guilty sayin tis cos e fact is God is all i need in my life. Sorry God.. well thk God for tis blog site though.. where i throw all my sorrows n happiness out.. though pple may not know how i feel.. but at least they might be happier.. i guess not be burden by me..
Something really impt is buggin me tightly.. close to my heart.. wats God's vision and callingfor me. The thing keep appearing.. kinda scare, wat if its really towards tt direction, i really am scared partly becos i afraid i might not heed e calling.. But deep within i really want to know n start workin towards it but seems like i am really weak...God grant me strength n courage tt i will follow Yer callin.. Its high time tt i should get tune with God for eternal.. Maybe should hav a talk with pastor or john.. abt it..
