Ages and ages.. my blog full of cobwebs and dust. It really a long time since i came in.. Too busy with stuff as well. Life is always interesting.. i am really glad each day is a happy and great day for me.. life has never been so joyful even in the midst of all the exams and worries and stuff. God has really changed so much of me to the point i can ever imagine.

Somethings still tug on and stick on like super glue it seems. Feelings and emotions.. as least i am glad i am not overwhelmed by it anymore. As i know the reasons and ways of dealing with it. I still have the habit of able to covered and hide emotions till the extent that i dun feel it. Until recently talking to some of my really close friends cause it to resurface again. Its like coming back to the point again. Relationship.. is it time or is it not. Am i going to remain single all my life or i will be married haha.. its really funny to think abt it. Looking ard in church and friends all abt, i think abt it.. yes what kind of feeling do i have towards them? Its the same answer, i treat them as my brothers and sisters nothing more nothing less.

Kinda went thru' every single feeling that i have towards the ladies.. so far i came to realise.. except for two persons.. the feelings are different. One has always been the first girl whom i really love. I would say i love her still both as a friend and sister. Its like going abt in circles and in the end, the feeling towards her seems to be staying on.. and refuse to go away. So the question is am i the one for her?? (Imagine myself loooking at God for an answer?)

Other is another girl whom came into my life before i came over to aussie. Yeah.. this is not as strong as the other one. But everything seems very smooth and great.. Still treating her as my younger sister and friend. I wouldnt really want to think so much upon it.

Its really hard to comprehen at times.. lost also.. Big things are really happening now.. and there is alot of people ard that will cause me to go head over heels.. actually its coming soon, the nagging feelings.. God please capture these feelings of mine and take them away. Its just isnt the right timing at all. I still have yrs ahead before i can even think abt moving into this area.