Orientation..

HMmm, orientation gettin me on my nerves.. spread over the wks.. now whole body aching like no body business.. back bone hurtin again. Going thru all the programs.. like wah.. siong n tiring.. plus all the walkin ard. Sun is still strong as it is.. sunburnt even after using the strongest sun block.

Today went to Uncle SP hse again.. had dinner with them.. manage to pass the stuff to danielle. well at least its given to her liaoz. Really thk God for this family, they been helping me alot. Offerin help in hse shifting, inviting me over to their hse for dinner n even tis sat a fishing trip. Also feel bit paiseh keep approachin them. Yes, the thing tt happened.. hmm. trains.. haiz. thought all trains have automated doors i was wrong.. coming home frm sunnybank.. waited in the cool nite finally it came.. stopped.. I was stupidly standing there waitin for the doors to open. it didnt. the person in charge there also nvr tell me.. wah.. best is the train move off left me standing there blur.

Talk to the person in charge, then realise tt the train door needs to be open by ourselves not like those in overseas. Haiz.. waited for another 20 mins in the cool nitez which has become abit too cold for me. Well lesson learnt. will not repeat it e 2nd time hhaah.. Tomolo will be rent day again.. jus hope i can sort things out with David. I really hope i can get all my bond back. 240. Jus need to confirm wat time n date i mus stay till before i can get my bond back. also pray hard tt it will be smooth n easy.. with no problems or anything. Gettin late n feelin tired as well. time to sleep. liaoz.. =)

Ice cappucino...

Days went by so fast.. next starting lessons.. already.. going to shift hse soon also... wah.. An ice cappucino on a hot day and tired day.. such a enjoyment.. somehow didnt seems strong enouf to keep me awake. Things seems to be settling down.. well. the acid test comes next wk. Feel like workin part time. should i?? Today is really sweaty n tiring day... rush here n there.. jus to get things done.. gettin a permanent phone line also so jialat.. waited for hr plus.. to the extent of falling asleep on the chair.. cant believe it.

Ladies is so hard to understand at times.. or is it jus me.. DUn even know how to ask n find out wat happened... one moment frenly then the next moment very hostile.. did i do something wrong.. maybe i did.. SHowing concern as a fren also seems so hard.. haiz..

Feelings, emotions.

Would it be better to say out wat my feelings are... i really dunno.. Really wanted to jus let her noe.. tt i could feel how wat she going thru at e moment.. to a certain extent.. but would it be worst or understandable.. I dunno.. my typin in words seems very harsh.. but tt isnt wat i want it to be.. jus dunno how.. to write it out.. It really hurts alot.. i really does..

Wish i had done.. better. Insensitive person i am.... jus hope i didnt make matters worst at tis pt of time.. its time to sleep liao.. but would i be able to sleep... worries are still there as well as the hurt n pain..

ahhhh..

Finally get to know wat had happen.. still very worried for her.. basically she is better... wonderin if my words are too harsh.. when i didnt mean to be.. haiz.. will continue to pray for her n the person involve.. jus hope tt she is not angry with me..

Wat have i done.. wat have i done.. wat have i done.. ???

well.. today is over liaoz.. things cant get any better i guess.. dun think tonite can sleep well again. Tomolo meeting with Grace is cancelled.. well its not the end of the world.. The big thing is something serious seems to have happened. Basically she alrite.. but somehow its involves other pple as well.. Very worried.. for her.. she seems very badly affected by the incident.. still dunno wat exactly happened..

Really pray tt she will remain strong n be able to pull thru.. trusting in the Lord.. Leavin for msia on friday.. with tis matter in mind.. find it hard.. worrying.. still. Other things in my mind as well.. so fast coming is 13th feb. I dunno how am i feeling.. Bought a bk by joshua harris.. part 2.. hope my question can be answered.. "selfish" question.. Other things as well... kept inside.. dun know whether can mentioned or jus stored hmmm.. possible tt bnol?? DMOL.. feeling quite down.. worries, worries, worries..