Hav a great talk with AL durin the camp... at least get to know her slightly better and tt facing problems as well. Looking back, realise in every persons' life.. there are hidden secrets.. whom bug us all the way.. regrets in life as simple as these.. fact is no one knows abt it but God knows abt it definitely. Simply feel with shame... dunno how am i to face God when judgement day comes.. where everything will be exposed.. knowing well abt tis y then do i continue with those ways, shouldnt i be changing myself..
Sitting with AL at the beach, still feeling super down, feel like cryin.. but she ard.. cant rite. Though its okay for guys to cry.. everyone needs a break at times.. somehow i didnt.. feel like pouring out sorrows to her.. but in the end i didnt. Prayed for her as well... but somehow i dunno wat i praying makes myself also super confused.. tt nite was a crappy nite for me i guess.. somehow i look kinda cheerful.. chattin with others, pokin fun.. but deep inside heart is torn apart by emotions. After e younger pple gone off to bed.. i drop off to the beach again.. tis time cried.. slightly. run out of tears already i guess.. Its always revolve ard e same things....
Torn apart, broken, alone...
Sitting in a dark, cold corner...
Hope lies with God...
Tis i already know...
But jus so hard to let go...
And give them all to Jesus...
Broken heart, shattered dreams...
Prayed and tried...
But its seems to no avail...
How long more then will i learn to let go...
Of these things and start pursuing things from God instead...
