Jus as i was vacuuming.. mind seems to be bloated with lotsa of stuff. Jus feel like going to explode anytime.. Scenes frm the kaleo camp slowly came into my mind. Remember the part where i jus sat at the bench n cried my hearts out. Release of fear n emotionals... reason is uncleared. There seems so many things in my mind.. 2nd nitez, was alone at the beach.. walk along the breakwater stones.. to a certain extend quite dangerous.. almost slip couple of times.. thk God still alive.. =) Sat there.. look up into the sky.. saw the moon n the stars.. somehow tt reminds me of grace. haha.. stupid rite. Marvelous creation of God... place up there, its really awesome.. if there were lotsa of stars out there.. Jus couldnt help but wonder where is heaven n where is God living at the moment. hmmm....
Coming to the sad part again.. sitting there. Feelin very lost n jus wanted to be alone.. thought i am afraid of lonliness. Waves gently splash against the shores n stones.. across lies sentosa n mainland.. bright lights shining ard.. indeed a break frm the hectic life in mainland.. quietness, stillness, peace as well. Lookin at the sea.. the feelin of death seem so strong... jus like tt time in Port Dickson.. its the same kind of feeling. I dunno why i feel tis way.. but its jus there..
