East Coast Park.... nice place to go to... sun, sea and sand. Seems like lotsa of things are happening.. kinda sad and worryin as well... Enjoyed the games n the fellowship..
Sittin at the break water there.. pening down thoughts.. time gettin shorter each day. Soon it will be nov... lookin on to the day i will be leavin for my studies, somehow.. feel excited n scared. So many things.. mus let go, really find it hard to accept. So many words.. so many thoughts.. jus dunno where to start.. Jus couldnt mouth the words out.
Lookin at the sea.. today.. thoughts started rollin back.. Sea itself is frightening... remember at port dickson.. camp. Standing at the sea there.. watchin the waves roll onto the shore wettin my feet. Sense a deep sadness.. starin at the waves.. feelin sorrows being drown away. Suddenly had e urge to jus wade deeper.. in.. Thought of death... seas seems to be calling out to me.. askin me to walk deeper in. When in pri. sch.. statin thinkin abt death.. going to hell, havin to go thru all the torture.. cried real badly.. But when its bright.... the sea really looks so safe n peaceful.. Seems like my worries are back again...
