so much stuff on my mind but cant even write a single thing on it. Still hanging in there, still holding back, enduring and tryin to be natural as well. But deep within, the emotions twist and twist to such extent tt its really unbearable. Jus like the wire i was untwisting out in the cold, took so long and in the end, both hands and shoulders are hurting but the wire is still untwisted. Hav i done something wrong again, everything jus seems so out of tune or maybe i am losing it. Lord, what should i do?? Whats the next step??