What has happened?? It jus something i cant grasp nor understand. Was it becos of me tt things have to turn out tt way. Its not the first time... y did have to happen. In the end, if everytime it is supposed to be this way.. i shouldnt have bother even to think or start. It simply happened so fast... tt it really puts a person into a shock... n no ans, wat n how should i go abt doing it.

Situation can be in such a state... i cant possibly think would really happen. Its totally like a 360 change.... frm the start things will nvr be the same again.. n it will nvr be as in the end. Now the fact is, i dunnno wats right n wrong, it so grey out there. Wat if it has to happen again.... and again n again. It not so easy to handle it.. it can drive a person to wits end. Only to regret tt it turn out this way when in the first place it wasnt mean to be such a situation. It wasnt even towards the end... but still it has happened...

wat should i do... wat am i suppose to do.. how am i suppose to go abt doing it. It can be so demoralising... to the point of giving up n back to square one.. which i had chose to change for the better of it. y?