Couple of hours at the beach isnt really enough time to let down everything. Couldnt have wish for more time, probably alone at the beach. It just hard to find a beach in brisbane itself, unless i have a car n driving license... sighzzz.

Yesterday took another walk along southbank... didnt want to stay at home, jus want to be alone, ponder and a lot of things flash past again and again. Jus wondering wat is really happening, the reason behind all that. All i know is i have to wait and trust, be patient until God shows more. It abit hard though, thinking too much unwanted stuff in the mind, but thing refuse to go away. Everyday, end up with a tired mind.. so tired.. n drained emotionally, spiritually as well. The acid test is coming soon, somehow foresee it to be a teary period of time. It gonna be tough. But bring it on.. so i can depend on God rather than my own strength.