Attended Hope Brisbane Church the 2nd time this time.. more open n able to worship God better. Charismatic church n kinda different from gefc. Had a enjoyable time.. more refreshed.. n more awake.. but still i dunno how i manage to enter the female toilet.. when it kinda obvious. thank God there wasnt anyone inside. Well. different angle.. the sign jus look so diff. hmmm.
now sitting here.. typin this, startin to miss pple again. Jus alone.. feeling abit cold.. actually i dunno how i feel exactly.. I should be happy God is still accompanying me still. Somehow the day i knew i was flyin off. Already knew tt some things will be lost n never be retrieve again.. things will be so different.. n its so frightening. Cant even fore see wat will happen exactly.. Then again things will be lost but also things will be gain in the process of it.. growing up process i guess. At times.. its saddening to think abt it.
Everyday esp during walkin home or to sch.. look ard.. jus feel so foreign in this place. So big.. so vast.. everything so diff. feel so small in this place.. Even as the wind blows.. thoughts of good times n bad times come back.. frens.. n family no ard.. being fully independent.. being throw into this big world fighting for survival. Sometimes jus wish tt i could understand my feeling better. nonetheless i still have God.. who is always faithful... n ever caring. Have decided to keep some words hidden inside my heart.. stash it away somewhere.. even thought i really wish i could jus say it out.. Probably once stash away.. it will never come out again. Its simply jus like giving up things.. at least still have God who truely knew my heart.. n how i feel exactly..
